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Well, this is definitely the fastest I’ve ever drawn a three page comic. It probably shows. 

Community is just super important to me I guess, and I think it deserves a better sense of closure. Also, I drew the characters from memory, so that’s why they look… like that.

Tendrils of sleep disperse atop my wakefulness
Laying sprinkles of tar upon my silky way
Each droplet of sound is a freckle on the face of a pale consciousness
The sticky sounds of subtle seduction lost beyond hovering veils.

Echo, echo - yawns alight my path
Through a cavernous confine of rarefied routine
Pale the day, scale the night
I close my eyes and awake pristine.

Note to self: write something concerning a well.

Shapes, colors, perceptions,

Conveying what we see and how we see it is all it takes to make art

Put your neuroses on a plate.

What kind of dish do you get?

Adventureland

WARNING: Full spoilers for Adventureland lie yonder.

I just (finally) watched Adventureland  This is a movie — nay, a FILM — full of teachable moments. While the plot hews to movie clichés on more than one occasion and lets romantic entanglements drive its narrative, Adventureland uses these devices in a surprisingly touching and fundamentally honest way.

Thoughts:

  • I really liked the way the central relationship between the main characters develops. The script brings the two together not with longing gazes, foot play, and copious sex, but with and in spite of their complex personality baggage (for lack of a better word).

    Em is somewhat self-loathing and uses sex as an escape, but has never loved. Jesse Eisenberg (okay fine, “James Brennan.” He’s always just freakin’ Jesse Eisenberg) has self-confidence, has been in love several times, and is a “hopeless” romantic (more on that in a moment), but has never had sex. The two come from opposite understandings of romance and eventually meet halfway. 

  • James’ concept of romance, specifically his Shakespeare reference (not wanting to “tend to her hours”) to explain why he broke up with his ex even though he could have slept with her first really struck a chord with me. I had a sort of similar experience once, and my course of action was similar to his. I like that the film treats James’ virginity not as this object of mockery but as a reflection of his character and of what matters to him. I also liked that the film does not treat his values as irrelevant, outdated, or necessarily a reflection of a religious code. He is who he is.

  • …which leads me to the fact that I really loved James’ honesty to others, but more strikingly his honesty to himself. This is best illustrated by the distinct ways James and Em cheat on each other.

    While Em is “cheating on James” with Connell, she’s doing it to escape. With Connell, she’s getting some sort of affection she isn’t getting at home, where her father and her despised stepmother are constantly fighting. She can’t be honest to herself about her attraction to James, and instead maintains the relationship she has to carry on in the shadows, represented by the basement of Connell’s mother’s house (ew).

    On the other hand, when James “cheats” by going on a date with the mythical Lisa P. (the bubblegum she chews might as well represent the depth of her character, and her importance goes “pop” with the pop of the gum outside James’ car), he’s doing it in a pursuit of understanding of self. Connell tells James that he is wired to be turned on by and therefore to pursue Lisa P., to explore what Joel calls his “biological imperative,” and Em’s semi-not-really-rejection of James him the “permission” to go out with Lisa P. While James’ date with Lisa P. ultimately doesn’t go anywhere — Frigo lurks physically and metaphorically just outside — and the two are clearly on very different wavelengths, he grows as a person because of it because he gains some understanding of what matters to him in a relationship and why the kissing of a breast won’t make up for the lack of emotional satisfaction.

    Of course, I’m not justifying his behavior — cheating, even in an ambiguous situation in a relationship, is definitely a bad thing to do. But I’m pointing out that the motivation behind the “cheating” and the way James comes clean about it reflect his desire to self-actualize as “man who wants woman, but not merely in the way a primate would.” James’ exploration represents not self-flagellation but a search for self.

  • Martin Starr is fantastic as Joel, and I liked the way Em stands up for him against Sue (“Do you support apartheid?”). I liked that the movie doesn’t feel the need to give Joel a Hollywood ending. The guy is aware that he’s poor and not very good looking, but we all know there’s a heart of gold in there. Sue saw it too. Too bad she’s an anti-Semite.

  • The Herman Melville bit is great. Self-actualization complete — time to go get the girl and succumb to the well-earned Hollywood ending:

    In the end, after spending the summer getting punched in the balls, James “GAMES GAMES GAMES” Brennan finally punches back, escapes to a questionable freedom in the rainy, cold city with a backpack containing no dry clothes, and finds warmth (of several kinds) in the loving embrace of Kristen Stewart. So there’s that Hollywood business for ya.

- Oren

FREEDOM
FLOWERS
FRIGHTENING POWERS

EXISTENTIAL CRISES WITH RATTLESNAKES AND ICED TEAS

Rhymes that make not an iota of sense
Eatin’ your scheme with ketchup and a rinse

Structure be gone
Be out of my face be swimming in a lake underside
The part of the world perceived by the man and his brothers
((Silent dissonance))

We’ll reunite when the sun zooms past the glass I view my world underneath

I’m back!

It’s been a long time since I’ve posted here but I find myself wondering what is the point and I mean that in multiple levels.

Also, loneliness is a silly thing. We live in such a connected state and yet, paradoxically, it’s so hard to connect in a meaningful sense.

I wonder how much of it matters anyway. And how much of it is just unique to my experience vs. how much is a common ailment. No one feels right.